Cancer BEAT DOWN!

I am still sorting through my treatment options. I will sit down with my family in the next few days and I will have to make a decision soon. Someone from a clinical trial will be calling me to give me more information about that and answer my questions so I can decide if I want to be a guinea pig, but it is the latest and greatest so you never know. But that is just one option. It is really hard trying to figure out what treatment I have the best odds of getting through and will kick me back into remission. It is hard making these decisions when one of the side effects listed is death. How about headache, blurred vision, nausea maybe, but death? I know that is the reality of it, that was the reality of it last time, but I got through it then and I will get through it again…with my Team behind me. The reality of it is I am going to kick cancer's butt…one way or another, whatever way I choose. It may get ugly, but my cancer IS going to get a beat down! And all that black vacant area of the scan image…I am not going to get caught up in that image or let myself be drawn into the fear. I choose to believe all those swollen inflamed tumorous lymph nodes are trying so hard to work for me…to protect me and chase the toxins and cancer cells away from my body. So maybe they had to get huge to do that, but they are trying so hard and I am going to keep on exercising and eating healthy and keep giving my body all of the resources it needs to fight. I haven't been able to do weights or exercise much since my biopsy, but I have managed to cycle on the bike trail 7 miles every morning before work. Exercise is the only power I have ever felt over my disease. So if I can cycle, even a little bit every morning, it makes me feel like I still have some control over my health. It is one of the ways I know I can help Team Vicki. Thank you for reading this and thank you for being on my Team!